soft.and.gentle

When sleep is too far away...

Things I like:

-99 cent black nail polish-to feel artsy
-Animal Planet-to feel all fuzzy and compassionate
-Sigur ros-to sleep or think (when sleep won't come)
-Miles and Holly-for inspiration
-Gavin (my stuffed frog)-for love
-Saul Williams-to feel anything at all
-12 dollar Hello Kitty Hoodie-to stay warm
-National Geographic Channel-to feel smart
-Garden State and Napolean Dynamite-for right now
-Haji-for hope
-Bush, Radiohead, Bright Eyes, Brand New, Tool, the Used, the Killers, Coldplay, Counting Crows, Modest Mouse, and many others-for old time sake

she is lonely
in my presence
and i understand

i am within
and have not
learned to be
two places at once

have not
learned
to be

i live and walk
but my thoughts
nurture a child
unborn

-Saul Williams

I'm listening to Green Eyes (Coldplay). I love, love, love this song. It's one of my favorites:)

I think I may have the flu. I have been ill all day...and I've thrown-up several times. All day long I have been wondering how on earth I could have gotten the flu. I mean, don't you have to get it from someone. But now that I think about it, someone has to start it. I mean, it has to come from somewhere. Although, an individual at the drama club meeting mentioned that he may have the flu. Hmmmm.

I am supposed to be doing my physics homework now. I am not. But I will, as soon as I feel up to par. But I am up to par enough to type this. Ok, so maybe my priorities are a bit askew.

So what is new in my life. Not all too much. Classes. Exercise. Sleep. Classes. Exercise. Sleep. Classes. Exercise. Sleep.

It's odd, but my speech class doesn't start until this upcoming Monday. It feels like I am going to be behind in it. But I won't be behind in it, since it hasn't even started. It's Mondays 7 PM - 10 PM.

Listen to Coldplay.

Watch more news. That's what I should do. New goal. My new life has new goals.

I had to find you. Tell you I need you. Tell you I set you apart.

Some say a comet will fall from the sky. Followed by meteor showers and tidal waves.
Followed by faultlines that cannot sit still. Followed by millions of dumbfounded dipshits.

Wow. Go me. Yea, Megan figured out the comments. Quite a task I might add.

I finally figured out my schedule for next semester. It took forever, and surprisingly was quite the mosquito by my ear. I have a rep for not getting too worked up about school stuff, but not having a solid schedule did actually worry me. Needless to say, I do not have any classes with Jenny:( but I have Psyc with Cooney, so that rocks!

I saw an awesome movie over break- Garden State, it was really good. Break has been boring...but eventful...and emotionally trying. VERY EMOTIONAL. I've only listened to Tool all day long...ok, that's a lie.

I miss my turtle so much. I keep having dreams about her. I especially needed her this break. But, I am sure she is happier with Dad. He gives her new dirt...I just carry her around in my purse and let her crawl around in the TC, but shhh...don't tell anyone that.

I want to adopt a little Japanese boy. Over break I was given the opportunity to meet the most adorable little Japanese boy. He's four. He's bilingual. He plays the violin. He's four.

I also want to adobt a little boy from Africa...

Fret for your latte. Fret for your Prozac.

I can't wait until Jenny and I have our house together. I'll feel so adult. We decided that we are going to have a bunch of pets. Because they are our only solace.

I have been drinking Chai tea like...well...ok...a lot. It's incredibly comforting. Until I burn my tongue and spit it on the person closest to me.

Fuck smiley glad-hands with hidden agendas. Fuck these dysfunctional,insecure actresses.

What else is new with me...Oh, my grams is in the nursing home. But she likes it better than Silver Threads, an assisted living place.

Oh, I received a "B" in Advanced Grammar. Yea, I kick ass.

I was going to say "got" instead of "received" but since I was talking...or rather, writing, about grammar I figured I should use a big kid word.

I can't wait to get back to school. It seems like another life there. I lead two lives...that never overlap.

Cuz I'm praying for rain. And I'm praying for tidal waves. I wanna see the ground give way. I wanna watch it all go down.